About me

I was born and grew up in Hamburg in Germany. Since I finished high school I have lived in Columbia, Denmark and Sweden and been to many places and met many people. In the past years I have really enjoyed living close to both nature and city and currently live in Stockholm.  I have a passion for languages and work in English, German, Danish and Swedish.

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There Is More to Life
Since I was a child, I’ve always had a sense that there must be more to life than just functioning well and the plain, everyday relating many of us engage in. From early on, I was searching for something deeper—some sense of profound love, contact, and aliveness. That search has shaped almost everything in my life, even when I didn’t know exactly what I was looking for.
 

As a child, I would often feel deep states of peace, love, and bliss when I was out running in nature, spending time with my horse or dog, or dancing. I felt disappointed, though, that these experiences never quite occurred when I was spending time with friends. I unconsciously assumed that deeper presence was probably reserved for sexual or romantic intimacy. As a teenager, I came to learn that sex and romance do not automatically bring this deep, alive presence. I was quietly heartbroken—though somewhat numb to the pain—because I got the impression that this is just how life is. Still, a small knowing persisted in me: that deeper contact was possible. It wasn’t until I was 22 that I truly dropped into that presence while in connection with other living human beings—through psychedelics and circling.
 

Parallel to my longing for presence and deeper contact, my early life was also shaped by hardship in my body. At 13 years old, daily chronic pain suddenly became my reality, forcing me to stop all kinds of exercise for years to come. I couldn’t feel at peace in my body—which, in turn, made me feel disconnected from it altogether. A turning point came when, on two separate occasions years apart, I suddenly dropped into my body and experienced the inherent pleasure of simply existing. These experiences showed me that it was worth looking for a deep sense of peace and pleasure within my body.
 

And so, I went looking for it. My journey first brought me to a Christian monastery in Colombia, and then to Scandinavia—first Denmark, and then Sweden, where I currently live.

It took years, but I did find what I was looking for—again and again, each time deeper.

One particular week stands out as having changed my life forever, when I was 23 years old:

During that week, I dove deep into philosophy in a university course and realized that our perception is shaped by how we look at the world—in simpler terms: what I see depends on how I see. On top of that, I tried psychedelics for the first time, which brought me into those well-known states of love and aliveness I had cherished so much as a child. And as if that wasn’t enough, I attended a weekend workshop I’d found on Facebook, though I hadn’t fully understood its description. I went anyway—and found myself spending an entire weekend in the practice of Surrendered Leadership and the European Circling approach with a room full of strangers. The workshop was led by Peter Munthe-Kaas and marked the day I felt deep presence and peace for the first time in connection with another being (apart from psychedelic trips). It was also the first time I could truly sit and meditate, to go beyond my thoughts (apart from psychedelic trips).
 

Since that weekend in late 2018, I’ve committed myself to the practices of relational presencing—such as circling and Surrendered Leadership.
 

Another formative experience was the co-created festival The Borderland, which I’ve attended four times since 2019. For me, it offered a week-long, stable access to a community that reminded me of what I had touched during psychedelic trips or moments of surrender: that there is more. That we can create and play with reality—and with dreams—and we don’t just have to accept things as they are. Everything can be questioned, and through that questioning, we can discover what is sacred to us.

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The Path I Committed To
I feel a deep devotion to the path I’m on in this life. That also means I made this path my work—I strive to embody truth, love, and aliveness in everything I do. I still follow the sense that there might be more to life, and I love working with people who want to explore what that “more” could be.
 

I deeply enjoyed diving into my own training and education, so I studied to become a licensed integral psychotherapist and trained as a leader in Surrendered Leadership and the European Circling approach—what I now call relational presencing and embodiment practices. I've been immersed in deep training for over four years. In the last few years, I’ve worked with coaching and therapy clients both online and in person, and I’ve led workshops. I’ve always loved playing with different modalities and integrating them into a more holistic way of being in this world. This is where an integral—or metamodern—approach has been especially meaningful to me.
 

In my work, what I care about most is being present with one another and surrendering to what is really there. In my client work, I care deeply about our relationship and what is unfolding between us in each moment. This is where the paradigm of Surrendered Leadership has shaped me profoundly. At first, Surrendered Leadership felt confronting—I didn’t like not being in control. I didn’t like not being able to make things go the way I wanted. But underneath that resistance was a deep sense of relief. I could let go and trust. I could feel the intelligence of something larger than me, moving through me—and through us. It feels simultaneously like being with and becoming God.

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My current edge lies in stumbling into nonduality while leading explorations into deeper attunement through movement and from surrendered leadership.
 

 

What People Often Appreciate About Me and My Work
People often feel both confronted and called by my truthfulness and deep attunement. My trust in my experience and what is unfolding tends to stay out for people. 
 

So many of us navigate life based on ideas of right and wrong, constantly trying to be liked or to belong. I invite you to step out of those categories—out of shame and effort—and into more of your own unique beauty, truth, and aliveness. These emerge naturally from a ground of innocence and goodness.